"Good" Morning

So i found myself all too awake this morning. i put a post up from last ngiht which i thought would make me happier. so i thought right? I did nothing but say "happy anniversary", good fucking morning to you too. talk about stability.

I truly miss having a best friend. i miss my old escapes. i miss everything i had. i miss my happiness. my internal cheerful spirit. where the fuck did it go? i spoke to someone i hadn't hung out with in a while this morning. thank you for reminding me what a horrible person i am. i try ok? what else can you ask from a person other than them to try. so yeah we grew distant. i am SO sorry.

i'm sick of that word. i'm a annoyed with apologizing when it gets me nowhere. i hate fake people. get the hell away from me if you aren't going to be who you are. i don't care who you are just be you! i will respect that. and be there for you. i'm not a toy.

talk about lashing out.

but i've got it ok? i suck. a loser to the core. thanks.